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What got me to toy with the idea of writing when I was in late kindergarten, the librarian would come and do story time and teach us to read. And the teacher who I am pretty sure was a neo-nazi was teaching us to write and do simple math. The reason I call her a neo-nazi is that she was mean as a hive of hornets…. She thought (the rest of the school believed her) that I was demonic and evil. But this did not ruin this experience but for my human rights, but this lead to me thinking about writing short ghost stories and I started to want to learn to sleep stuff which was in the school curriculum as well so this was good. I was at the time reading Stephen king’s the Stand with my father and learning to write and read from my mother (who was a better teacher then the asshole I had in school). I was also well versed in the night sky as well and I would soon see that not everyone like gifted and intelligent people. But that will be for another time. I wanted to be a horror writer but turns out I would be a romance writer instead which was just as ironic, though sometimes my writing has elements of horror in it though I started to really write poetry when I was about 17 years old when I had a massive depression that was caused by PTSD and other curve balls that life throws at you. So I write poetry and there was on poem that I wrote which was a scary micro novel that being said I started to writing more and more words and it starts to get more romantic in nature which was fine, though I wrote (pretty piss poorly)a series of books call the red series. I think that it should have fixed my grammar with that but I started to publish this shotty work on Amazon, Though I started to take a course though coursera for creative writing which was more streamlined and that helped me, though MAGA took over Amazon publishing with their ass backwards thinking and I was given the boot from Amazon kindle direct publishing, for being non-white and Canadian.
that being said I started to write romance as this was easier and the amygdala and stress levels. So I write romance and just that. Being said I enjoy this for the most part and love writing romance, though I do so for my grandmother (mother’s mother) who love erotica and romance novels. I would get my first exposer about erotica when I was 16 and this was good but also unfortunate at the same time as I was just sixteen though it pricked my interest. I wanted to write this but was not of age to write such smut! So I had to wait until the law was good and ready to call me an adult. I started to write just sfw shit then but once I started to turn 18 a switch went on. That being said I started to write as delicately as the anaïs nin who more or less taught me to write erotica. Though her books were wall to wall sex I would rather have a story in between sex scenes though I try not to be to descriptive with that.
that being said I will end this with a quote from American history x, a great movie though I think you should see this movie before it goes in the vault.
”[Narrating his essay] So I guess this is where I tell you what I learned - my conclusion, right? Well, my conclusion is: Hate is baggage. Life's too short to be pissed off all the time. It's just not worth it. Derek says it's always good to end a paper with a quote. He says someone else has already said it best. So if you can't top it, steal from them and go out strong. So I picked a guy I thought you'd like. 'We are not enemies, but friends. We must not be enemies. Though passion may have strained, it must not break our bonds of affection. The mystic chords of memory will swell when again touched, as surely they will be, by the better angels of our nature.'”
being said I started to write out of anger at the time of Covid because it was annoying that being said I think life is too short to be pissed off all the time. This is why I love this movie about the two neo-nazis trying to straighten up and fly human. Because I had an overwhelming amount of anger and writing made me see this instead of going to jail. I also think that the written word is rather important for creativity and mental health. Which I say fuck a college (university) education this does not crest an imagination but stifles this. I have been writing since age 6 and I don’t intend on quitting because this is my only therapy I can have.
not everyone can afford therapy but you can still have an imaginary world and that being said I think does have healing powers. It is not just a pass time for me this helped me heal from a rather big trauma history that would out do Romeo Dallaire and o-ren Ishiguro (kill bill volume 1).

now I started to write a bunch of essays called the “my scoliosis diary” series and this is what I am trying to convey that even if it is a personal essay this has all the healing power of medication and crystals and such. So if you know how to read and write, be thinking your self as luck because this is a hell of pain killer for your emotions and it will last.